Day 3 detox

Nausea has set in on me to add to leg pain and lower back pain which was the original reason I got put on these meds...really wish I was in the hospital doing this but they either don't treat patients in my condition or they want you in day you quit to go through detox there...they claim I'm in the clear for detox...they claim it will only get better and that the norco and Valium and naproxen and gabapentin are not usually drugs they need to hospitalize to detox well I'm running a fever and have migraines on and off and lost all appetite have to force myself to eat...maybe I'm an acceptation to their little box of normalcy...I really don't know and don't care what they think about this...for me it's worse thing ever...I'm sorry if I scare you I'm very sensitive to medication the norco were only 5's...so thankful that was enough to take care of my pain I couldn't imagine coming off tens at this point in time...I imagine this is what it's like to come on hard street drugs...thankfully I never had the experience of getting hooked on those...anyways keep prayers coming still shaky migraine here and there in waves...now nausea and loss of appetite...fever and chills 101.4...why do they have little boxes for me to fit in? I'm uniquely me...they can take their typical limit on days facing detox (3-5 days) and shove it up their asses...and that's all I have to say about that...thanks for the support and prayers Lord knows I need them since He will be the only help I can have through this...because the system failed me...going back asleep where I can escape from all these detox symptoms and the original reason for being on those damn pills...I don't care if I lose my legs and have them amputated and am in worse pain than having a baby with no drugs (4 of my 6 were that way so I know that pain threshold) I'm refusing hydro condone, opiates, and all addictive type medications and tell them to shove them up their asses...cuz I'm never going through this again! And if I do...lesson learned on going in the day I plan to stop them and not think for a moment I can go through this alone...fuck no...lesson learned...filed away in my mind forever...this really sucks...if you are thinking about getting off any opiates don't think for a second you can do it alone just go in...if no insurance they have state funded treatment facilities that won't help the insured like me...so call united way and find a treatment facility that's state funded and go in...I'm honestly ready to say "I'm going to kill myself" cuz it wouldn't be far from the truth at this point...shakes, nausea, vision going in and out of focus, migraine coming in waves, leg and lower back pain, yeah just put me out of my misery please and thank you! I will walk to the hospital at this point...in this town it wouldn't be advisable this late at night or even in broad day light...so not going to do that...but my husband is very tired and I don't want to have him take me to the er and pay $100 copay and them not keep me...so I will bite this bullet some more and hope all is well tomorrow...gn